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You look pretty real to me. [ How does he not see that he matters to her? That while he may think very little of himself, she sees all of the good in him and beyond? What she sees isn't a fantasy at all. She sees someone she cares deeply for and admires greatly.

Her eyes widen a fraction, though, at what he says next. She's glad he's not looking at her right now, because her breath catches ever so slightly in her throat as her brain works to process his words. ]

There is no one more suitable for me than you. [ Her voice os both gentle yet firm, and somehow she manages to keep ot even and steady, even as she feels her pulse quickening, heart slamming into her rib cage. ] Feelings aren't a bad thing... they don't make you weak or any less, I promise. And I'd never take them for granted, I can assure you.

Enough! Stop thinking I'm the one! [The water sloshes about as he slams the watering can onto the desk. The metal folding into itself from the force behind it.]

I'm not and never will be, not to you or to anyone! [He is the Ultimate Lifeform, beyond anyone's capabilities and understanding. Who couldn't even do the one thing he was created to do, cure one little girl. Incompatible. Failure. A fist slams on the desk.]

These feelings are nothing more than a nuisance I want gone. Why can't you understand that? [Attachments are unnecessary trouble he doesn't need. People can be managed when he can keep them at an arm's length. This?]

[ The noise makes the pink hedgehog jump, and she winces a little. He might be frustrated, but he hasn't kicked her out yet. She's fully expecting that soon enough, though. ]

So instead of leaning into them, you just want them to magically go away? [ She rubs her temples for a second. Somehow, this is almost way worse than unrequited feelings. Having someone you like admitting they also have feelings but don't care to indulge in them is mind boggling, but also... very Shadow-like. She sighs. ]

I can't understand that because I want the exact opposite of what you want. [ She takes a breath, and then shakes her head. ] But it doesn't matter what I want. If you want to ignore your feelings, as much as I don't understand it... I can't stop you.

[ And thay sucks because she wants to grab him and shake him until he understands. If only it were that easy. ]

Then you don't know me as well as you thought. [Foolish. Letting her feelings speak for her than thinking rationally. His fist clenches. He's almost there, almost convinced her to end this pointless chase.]

I will crush these feelings, so you can move on. [So she can stop inisting he's the only one for her, because she deserves better, because she matters to him.]

[ Amy stares tiredly at him, and then she groans and buries her face into her hands. This hedgehog is ridiculous. ]

Even if you do that, I won't move on. That's not how this works. [ She drops her hands back to their respective sides, and she sighs heavily. ] You might be able to change your feelings, but I can't. And I don't want to. I'm sorry for that, but I won't.

[...What the hell? What the hell?] Idiot. Foolish. [Why?] Why hold on, when I'll never return those feelings? [Just move on!!]

Because you're very special to me. Even if you don't return those feelings, it doesn't change that fact. [ Said very matter of fact, thanks. ] I won't bother you with it again, but I'll still have those feelings in my heart.

[He grits his teeth. Stupid stupid girl. She can't, she should't. How has it come to this? She would carry those unrequited feelings forever? Tormenting herself? He can't accept that. He can't allow her to carry that burden.

...

So be it.

There was a flash and he was suddenly gone, leaving Amy alone with the plants, the coffee long since abandoned. He won't return for awhile. Perhaps Amy will have chosen to leave instead of waiting by the time he does, but when Amy tries to return to her home...she'll be in for a horrible surprise. Her home was now up in flames. Parts of the home, where the kitchen area once was, destroyed. One can put two together, where Shadow had suddenly disappeared to.

This is what started that downward spiral, so he'll destroy it at it's source.]

[ She definitely doesn't wait around for long, mostly because she's pretty sure he's just bailed. It isn't until she returns home and sees the destruction that she realizes just where he went.

She wants to be mad and call him childish, but she doesn't. She goes inside just to make sure her friends are okay-- they aren't home fortunately, before she just goes to sit in the front yard for a while.

Message definitely received. ]

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